Decisions?

After thinking about it all week (and months before that), and talking about it with my parents, I think that I'm going to take a leave of absence from ND for the semester and spend it figuring out what the heck I'm going to do. Sigh. Can I really do this? I have absolutely no idea. I just know that it's not good for me there anymore. If it ever was. I have tons of questions still, and I don't know if they'll ever get answered, but me right now at this point who I am can't stand the thought of going back there even for the rest of the semester, let alone two more years. I can't help but wonder, though, if part of it is the fact that I'm sick of school in general. Or maybe I'm just so drained there because I have little to sustain me that I can't deal with schoolwork, and if I was home I'd have more to sustain me and I'd be able to do school. I mean, I managed during high school didn't I? I'm just so confused. But...I think I have to at least take the semester off from ND. It's so scary. But sometimes that which is right is the scary option. Neither option is "easy" per se, because one of them requires me to be away from pretty much all that I love, and the other requires me to break away from the community I've been a part of the last two years and say goodbye to all that stuff and enter into a whole new world and a whole new path without all that stuff that being at ND has entailed. A new school (eventually at least), new friends (but hopefully some old ones too), all that. I don't know. I'm so confused. It sucks.